the visitors.

sometimes you found yourself visited by your pasts. it could be anything or anyone. and it could be your sins. drop by in your thoughts, your emotions.. you felt dirty instantly, and of course guilty and embarrassed. you wish you could turn back time.

hoping desperately you could change your history. but then after a few moments, you feel glad and in fact thankful to Allah for everything that occurred. when your sins haunt you, hug you tightly, conquered your mind and your emotions. you feel suffocate and stuck, as if there is no way you do would change anything. you search for a second chance but yet you know it wasn't easy.

you still commit sins along your journey..
purposely or accidentally..

you feel like no one understand, no one will support until you fell and got deeply injured.

you cried.

again.

your eyes burnt, with your hot tears.

then somehow, as if someone lift your chin, your view locked at the beautiful sky - "oh, there is Allah", you told yourself silently.

again, you build your hope in your heart. you dare to have dreams again. but now, every step you take would be very slow. you won't simply do things. you would refer to Allah. you pray for Allah's guidance and love always.

and now..

you realize it is important to be visited by your pasts (sins), to help you develop a better you, to help you always crave for Allah's help, to help you live according to Al-Quran and As-Sunnah.

our sins are not to be repeated but to be repented.