T. Zarina ;)

Last week I received an SMS from my dear friend. She's a teacher, teaching in Penang. Her SMS was :-

"Today, I almost went mad in class :( just drained every energy in me. so breaking. my tears dropped when I was in class. I desperately need a hug".

I read it 2-3 times before I replied. But she didn't SMS me back, so I called. She sounded as if she was just finished crying. We talked about what happened. During the conversation, I didn't know exactly what to respond. I was just kept on wishing I was near her to comfort and cheer her up.

After the 'sharing session' over the phone, I had a moment to myself thinking. It was never easy being a teacher (though some of THE people claim that it is). Love is the most important fundamental you have to allocate in your heart for your students. Otherwise, we just wouldn't be able to teach. Let alone to enjoy it!

As Muslims, I know - teaching (+ nurturing, guiding and a bit of counselling) are my 'saving' in the Hereafter. Therefore, I need to instill pure sincerity in doing so. My friend's situation put me back to reminisce.

I experienced embarrassment and complete furious with my Year 3 students, that tears (out of nowhere) suddenly dropping non-stop. I didn't cry. I didn't even sob. The tears just went down uncontrollably that I had to get out from the class. A few minutes afterwards, I received an apology note. It was from Saiful Islam.

The letter said:-

For Teacher Zarina. Sorry from Saiful Islam. Sorry for make you sad and please teach me how to do simple past tense (ok, please ignore this part ;p) and don't cry.

Love, Saiful Islam.

p/s : I want to be a good khalifah.

So sweet. Right? The note is so special I keep it in my purse ;)

Then, the rest followed. I had so many apologies letters on my tables. Some of them even made for me origamis. And some of them, came to see me to hug or to just pat me on my back ;) I didn't move, I didn't talk. I was just smiling through my tears ( my sign of saying thank you to them).

With my everyday moments with my students, I pray Allah to have ikhlas planted deep in my heart to be a teacher. As a teacher, insyaAllah I want to be :-

The designer of human success.

Amin.

p/s : please pray for me.

Thank you, may Allah bless you.