Thursday, March 10, 2011

Pouring my heart out

Currently (super) busy with a few 'other' work leave me no time to even get my hair shampoo-ed. It feels as if my brain never stop thinking (of to-do things) that I wake (almost) every morning lately with a major headache and my neck so tense.

So I cry.

;/

I (may have) omit my duty as a family girl (wife, daughter, niece, granddaughter,sister *cough* daughter in law) and everyday hoping (& praying) these people : MY FAMILY, will simply understand and accept things as they are.

I owe them : a world.

I need to learn to let go of my work until I go to school again in the next morning.

Keep telling myself - to perform tahajud but to no avail. I struggle every morning just to get my eyes open and put my comfy blanket aside ;p I want to make that moment my ME TIME. So far, no succeed.

Though I may experience emotional, physical and psychological exhaustion . . . Alhamdulillah, I still manage to have genuine laugh with my students and my colleagues.

Oh, what a welcome relief ;)

Note to self : I need to make periodic assessment of the direction of my own life to determine if I'm living the way I want. But where to begin?

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