A reward or a challenge?

I’ve been longing to visit this country since forever. I wanted to learn the culture, the language and meeting the locals & definitely to indulge myself with the food. Then, out of the blue, I got an offer. Offer to visit the country. I know it’s not in the state where it is safe and secure to receive any tourist but I am simply wanted to. Well, there are reasons of course. Duh..

Not in a moment where I could perform Istikharah immediately, I flipped through my Tafsir – to get a convincing answer from Ar-Rahman. It was Al-Mumtahanah:6. Then I went to the previous page. It was Al-Mumtahanah:5

"Our Lord, make us not [objects of] torment for the disbelievers and forgive us, our Lord. Indeed, it is You who is the Exalted in Might, the Wise."

(“ Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Kamu jadikan kami (sasaran) fitnah bagi orang kafir. Dan ampunilah kami, ya Tuhan kami. Sesungguhnya Kamu yang Maha Perkasa, lagi Maha Bijaksana.”)

Al-Mumtahanah:4 was the first part of the doa, it sounded –

"Our Lord! in Thee do we trust, and to Thee do we turn in repentance: to Thee is (our) Final Goal".

("Ya Tuhan Kami, hanya kepada Kamu, kami bertawakal dan hanya kepada Kamu, kami bertaubat dan hanya kepada Kamu, kami kembali.")

It is our Prophet Ibrahim’s doa.

The doa is definitely convincing. It put me straight to the idea on accepting the offer. In fact, I already have. I’m no longer hesitate insyaAllah. But the concern and worry is definitely covering my heart. Just so you know, my heart beat is beating faster day to day. Well, you know : as the day pass by and it’s getting closer to the date insyaAllah I’m departing.

InsyaAllah I’m planning to visit and I will be.

Bismillahi tawakal tu Alallah.